A Message to my Queen

I wrote you these words,
And I know that you'll not gone read it.
It's everything in my heart,
And it's for you now to believe it.
Since I knew you everything changed,
All the rules the lows, I knew it.
Nothing become the same,
And it's because I started to feel it.
Something wired painful or sweet,
I tried hard, but even though I can't describe it.
It's like I am not me anymore,
And someone else has got to live it.
Or maybe this the real me,
And I didn't even know about it.
I don't know if you changed me for better,
Or even for worse, honestly I can't feel it.
Life is wonderful when you are a round,
But just when you leave, I just lost it.
I don't know should I stay with you,
And sacrifice everything I wanted it,
Or should I let you go,
And run from the pain, till I meet it.
Answer me my queen…. please,
Coz it's getting harder everyday to live it.